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[Rindo takes small sips of water as he watches Gladion's messages come in. He has to reread them a few times to really parse them, because this kind of nonsense is confusing at the best of times. It's one thing to be told Ryslig has a tendency to pull people in from different points in time, and it's another to hear about other people in the same situation as him. Suddenly he's feeling a strong sense of kinship with these twins. Being honest, though, the idea of having to adjust to it, rather than finding some kind of fix, is less than pleasant. It's… unfair. If he's going to get sent to Ryslig, at least let it be with matching memories… It just feels like a sick joke at his expense.

Then Rindo blinks at the sight of the picture—he knew laptops could send and receive them, but… damn, that's really low quality. A small, incredulous smile appears on his face as he realizes what he's looking at. So Gladion really did end up scaling a building yesterday! "Somewhere out of the way" indeed. Even with the risk of fusion, it feels almost… excessive. Not like he can fault him for being cautious, though.

As far as privacy goes… Well, it's not like any of this is a secret, or particularly sensitive information, even. Surely Gladion doesn't know Swallow, right? Maybe he can keep things vague, just in case. Anyway…]

so theres no easy fix to the timeline and amnesia stuff then... that sucks

anyway thanks. it means a lot.
im def weirded out by the others knowing me but its not the worst part

[Takes a moment to think about how to word this.]

my friend and i were close back home, but she never really talked about herself much tbh

she was evasive whenever i asked stuff about her so i kinda gave up cuz i didnt want to be pushy

i didnt think about it much, but then when i got here i realized that she has this whole life i knew nothing about. she's close enough with her housemates to call them family, shes even dating one of them

and she got really upset that i didnt recognize her... it makes me wonder just what i couldve missed for her to react that way

obviously i dont want to make her feel bad but its not like i can do anything abt this...

im glad she found me and that i have a roof over my head but i feel like the odd one out

the only one thats still human stuck in the middle of a bunch of ppl who know me and who have everything about this place figured out already

i dont even remember what im supposed to remember... its making me feel like im doing everything wrong somehow

[…Oversharing much? Gladion isn't Swallow, he might not take so kindly to Rindo's venting.]

i know it sounds stupid but... ig i dont really have anyone else to talk to abt all this

im sorry if this is a lot

[Well, there's no taking any of this back. All he can do now is anxiously wait for an answer.]

[There is...a lot of food for thought here.

(He sympathizes with not talking much about yourself. This is a very frank view of the other side of that. It's...well, it's food for thought, for him. He's chewing it.)]

If timelines are involved, there's not exactly anything to remember, "supposed to" or otherwise. Our situation actually did involve amnesia and it was still counterproductive to act like he could be a different version of himself if he tried hard enough.

I wasn't privy to every conversation about it, but I think ultimately what they had to do was be honest about the whole thing. And accept getting to know each other "again" instead of waiting for things to magically line back up.

Which, like you said, means you can't do that much about it personally. Except being honest. They either will or won't figure their own feelings out.

[This is… obnoxiously good advice. Albeit strictly focused on the practical aspects of the situation. Which, well, that's fair—can't expect Gladion to deal with Rindo's fears of inadequacy. If Gladion won't openly acknowledge them, that gives Rindo an out, which is good because now he's worried he's gone too far.

…That said, he finds that it is a little too easy to slip into treating Gladion like Swallow. Which is concerning on two levels: they do not have three years of friendship to their name, and replicating that one-sided dynamic is probably not the best idea.

So let's just pull back on the vulnerability for a bit.]

well... idk if im from earlier in her timeline or if i have amnesia. its all just guesses in the end

but ur right its probably the same thing either way

[And the persistent thought of "it's unfair" threatens to make his tears flow again, even though they had mostly stopped at some point during this whole… venting thing.]

["Strictly focused on the practical aspects of the situation" is such a good coping mechanism though. You can just, like, pretend not to have hurtable feelings. Or you can decide that you'll surely stop feeling bad once you achieve a vague, unattainable standard of Having Your Shit Together.

Speaking of which, as Gladion continues to chew and chew and chew and finally turns that i feel like the odd one out part over to his own satisfaction:]

You might want to try to get into contact with some other new arrivals. Your housemates probably know someone who's met someone, if you didn't get any names on the way over.

[And other than that...ugh. He's not very organized anymore. Still chewing. i feel like the odd one out, Rindo says, and all Gladion can really think is...yeah, that's, it's accurate, isn't it?]

The first thing I did when I arrived in Ryslig was basically to sleep for a few days. Take things on one at a time.

[…About that.]

didnt end up meeting any other new arrivals... i think i came out of the sewer after most everyone else

but ill think about it

[Very halfhearted statement. Socializing is already hard enough at the best of times; right now the thought of going out of his way to meet new people feels downright impossible.

As for the rest… He can concur with sleep being an appealing proposition. He certainly feels tired enough to pass out for weeks. But now he's curious, and for lack of an easy-to-contact fellow newbie…]

howd things go for you when you got here?

[He leaves the question open-ended deliberately, because if it's anything like his melting incidents then it might not be the most pleasant topic to breach.]

[UHHhhhhh that's actually. A good question, isn't it. Gives him pause.]

If you ever hear people talking about a "Felfri", I was one of the people who showed up when that was happening. There was a lot going on, but the shortest explanation is that it was some kind of other world attached to this one. I spent a month there before actually making it to Ryslig.

Felfri was a nightmare for its own reasons. I met two other new arrivals from my own world there. By the time we got here, we weren't about to split up over nothing. So we got an apartment at the 38-8 together, and then moved out later to where we are now.

[That's....a summary? There was so goddamn much happening that it's hard to pick out more detail than on a first pass. Also, as important as it is to decisively badmouth the gods, that's another Maybe Wait At Least One Day sort of topic.]

Edited 2023-04-18 23:35 (UTC)

[…Well that sounds like a whole Thing. Rindo is a little envious of Gladion having arrived with people from his world. In most ways, it would be more difficult than the hand he's been dealt, but… Even though it's clear to him by now that new arrivals are all out of their depth, his acute awareness of the gap in knowledge and experience between him and the rest of the house is making it feel way worse.

After that, he just sits there for a moment. His mind is lagging a little bit from… everything? There's been a lot of talking and a lot of emotions crammed in one day and now he's drained. Or numb. It is, honestly, an improvement from his earlier state. But he kinda… forgot to reply to Gladion. Oops.]

[At first Gladion just waits, and spends the wait mulling things over further. I'll think about it is a barely-concealed shrug. He is, he thinks, concerned for Rindo. But also: the guy doesn't need to be fussed at about making friends, of all fucking things, mere hours after...all of this.

Who is he even turning into.

Some time passes. Gladion starts to wonder, a little.

...There are other things that don't really need to be fussed over, either.]

I'll let you get some rest. See you around, probably.

[…Crap. How many minutes was that?]

sorry im still here
just zoned out for a bit

[Embarrassing… Should he even say something about Felfri? He doesn't know anything about it. It'd just be empty platitudes… there's no point. Right.]

but honestly ur right...
im really tired
its been one thing after another for 2 days straight

i think im gonna try to get some sleep

[A pause. This is the kind of rapidfire messaging that happens when you're exhausted beyond belief and most of your inhibitions are shot.]

thanks

for taking the time to hear me out

[…He feels a little better, now, he supposes.]

[Yeah he's gonna choose to interpret "zoned out" as "dozed off".]

Don't worry about it.

I don't normally check my messages as often as I have today, but if anything comes up, my inbox is open.

[That

feels less pushy than "if you have any more questions".]

got it

[…Rindo really owes him.

He remembers the way Gladion was flicking melting bits of moss off his body. Wonders if it gets cold at night, up on that roof. There's not much he can do, but…]

take care

[…This is at least something.]

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